wired up

i'm sorry for not updating for a while. but life in army is pretty much the same. except that my bunk was caught sleeping in bunk when we're supposed to do area cleaning. and now, it's going to burn my deserving long weekend. why is it so easy for people to point out things that are wrong and so difficult to notice the good? it's all luck-dependent, isn't it?

alot of stuff happened last weekend. i know it's going to re-surface somehow, but i still kept my fingers crossed, hoping to stop the repeat of the fateful episode. i want it to stop. we want it to stop. but what can we do if our advice are going down the sink. and no matter which way i chose at the end, there's never a happy ending. there will never be a perfect solution. so i took the easy way out: escape. (and i sure as hell know that it's going to be a big mistake. but f-k it.)

i am such a coward.