alone on the sea

the place i'm now at is probably the shittiest place ever.

i've been putting in my effort in all the planning. trying to do things as diplomatically as possible and holding on to all the strained ties. but it is impossible to satisfy everyone. you guys have your point of view and i understand, but you really should put yourself in others' shoes. ultimately, it's not as simple as you think it is.

for one, i'm not the decision maker. i'm just like everyone, getting the same pay, getting the same treatment. i don't have the authority to make decisions. so stop trying to force me to make choices that are simply not up to me.

and i'm no god. i'm not everything. what i can do is to be a listening ear, which i'm already trying my best to do. but it seems that it has been taken for granted. listening to problems now equals the need to do something to change things, which as much as i regret, i can't.

so give me some leeway, please. understand what i'm doing. the last thing i want is to get misunderstood.